Didn't really had the time to blog these few days. I'm returning home late often. So now i'm back here blogging, please give me a big round of applause! :D Thank you... thank you! Lol. My leg is SO EFFING NICE. It never seems to heal but i like it. Cause i don't have to attend P.E lessons and morning runs! How great! If only i'm having high fever, i don't even have to attend school! Hahahah.
I've nothing to blog today. Because school is always the same as usual!
Okay, now i've decided to just try doing the front _____. At least not the whole _____... if not it'll be a waste if it fails. Gonna find time and company to go check the price out soon!
Making up Valentine with my girls this weekend.(hopefully) Wondering where should we go. I feel like going Ikea, cause i like going there! Hahahaha, it's so budget and everything's nice and new. And you can even lie on their bed. Soooooooooooo niceeeee. :D
Alright, i shall not rant anything today. Cause it seems like my blog is only for rantings. Hahaha, kind of stupid!_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Out with Amy for make-up valentine. Celia tagged along and shopped. Happy that i didn't buy anything! Cause i'm really saving money for some important stuff. Except that i helped to buy friend's stuff. So everything is in owing status. :D I still haven't pay my Library loans. Shiats, i'm scared i'll spend that money away. I'm such a big spendthrift. Hate it! I think i'm really having a diet. I had only 2 meals today, or should i say everytime i go out? One meal before leaving house and another outside. Ahhhh, i shouldn't continue this habit anymore! I need food to stuff my stupid stomach! Kinda hungry now. Maybe cook something for myself later on. :D Yumyum, fooddddd.
Met up with Vincent and co. later. Laugh, chat, slack, advises. Okay, that's all. :D
During the night, bad news came. It was a shocked, i knew it was her. I couldn't figure out the reason why but she's avoiding me. For why should she, and what's with me? It isn't nice to know such news but i should've known it long before. What have i done or said? What's that particular reason made her have that mindset? All the past loves are such a lie to me now. She is so not worth in my heart anymore, not at all. She doesn't seem to appreciate what i do and the reason why i do. She's not living in me anymore. It hurts to know how well we were and it turned out to be like that. And it hurts to see those tiny pictures. It definitely hurts to find that you're not here anymore. But i'm certain that you never'll be here again. Because it's all over, your second chance is gone. Don't be too secretive, because i have ways to know. Last, i'm not hating her.
I seriously don't know about the plans for tomorrow. I feel like going, but there's just someone who doesn't wish to see me. But i don't feel like giving that 'someone' a bad day. I have to meet for make-up valentine with husband and family. But i have no much plans. Should i go? Some wish me to go, some don't. It's hard to decide. But that's so selfish. It's irritating! ):
You're not worth my care anymore. I've known you long, that's what i get. Thanks man.
I tripped and fell down today. Just blame it on that cat! I was thinking something else and i saw the cat. The cat meowed and the next minute i knew, i was on the floor. Super stupid, i know. It's a bad wound and i had to bear with it until i reached school. I couldn't really bend my knees, cause it's really painful. So i'd a hard time climbing up the stairs to my class. ): Worse, i went to the office to get some medications. You'ld know how much it hurts!
Kind of nice in school too. Mr. Teng kept on taking my food and shake it! Because he's jealous that i have food and he don't. HAHAHAAH. School was rather fun today. (:
Now all i need most is money. I need money for shoppings. I need A LOT of money for _________. I need money for Library loans. I need money for food. I need money for topping up of EZlink. I need money for entertainments. I need money for... How i hope everything can be taken for free!
My rose's becoming black in a few days time! Wow, black rose. Maybe i'm gonna think of some random guys and start plucking it's petals. Love me, Love me not, Love me, Love me not... Hahaha! Maybe it's gonna work well yeah? LOL.
Now i'm interested in Samsung Pixon phone. It's cool like WOOOO! -8 Megapixel camera -3.2" Full Touch Screen -Advanced camera functions -Cue in pictures by tilting mobile -Multiple photo-tagging capabilities
-ASR(Advanced shake reduction) -WDR(Wide dynamic range) -Face detection -Smile short
-No slides, no sidekicks, no nothing! -SIMPLY A TOUCH PHONE.
That's just the kind of phone i'm hell looking for! But only until September then i can get a new phone. By then, there'll be new phones out. I hope there's another similar kind. Come on technology, i know you can do it! :D
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I'm feeling so tired nowadays. Been falling asleep during lessons. And i just can't forget about Ben throwing my file and destroyed it! Bought and used it not more than a week and it's damaged. It's so whathehell. Made me quite moody during Chemistry lesson today.
Am making up Valentine by dating with Amy on Saturday.(Celia too?) Yeah, i'm so hell looking forward to it! And poor thing, Gabby lost his loaned storybook. Someone must have stolen it. How stupid can that be! Hahaah. I mean, it's just the school's book and what's there to steal about!
Guess what. I memorised the answer sheet for the Geography re-test. It's like no matter how well i did, i'm just gonna get half the marks. And i'm working on it so hard! That's stupid. ):
Stayed back in school in the canteen for quite some time and i saw this old friend. Things just started to whirl inside me. Well, it was a shock that we didn't greet each other. And i knew this'ld gonna happen, but it's just too shocking to know it's really a fact now. You look like you've changed alot.(Or is it me?) I seems like a stranger to you right now. Why oh why, why were you even posted to other class? And the next thing i'll probably be shocked about is knowing they're ______. It's not gonna be nice, i know. But this is getting too far apart. There's really no forever. You're still doing great, i hope.
Celia finally posted some pictures and i've just grabbed them. Here they are:
Look at my eyes! Like cock-eye! I've no idea about the white white thingy on my eye. Looks ugly! See, my curls suck that day, really! Can you see that bouquet of flower on her hand? Her favourite. Pimples! Whathehell! ): My smile is totally O-M-G. I remembered there's a better take, but she didn't post it.
They were right but i refused to absorb and now, when i think back, it's all too late and stupid. I should have known the consequences i'm about to hold. But the world didn't gave me a future look. I just need patience and waitings._________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I was hell effing moody a few hours ago. Those bastards really keeps getting on my nerves. There's a moment i really felt like effing throw whatever i see on their face. I mean it! Why the hell didn't they just trip and fell off a building?! Why the effing hell were they even born out for?! I so hope their faces are on the Chinese Newspapers. Effing people come for good stuffs only, otherwise, they effing leave you out. Just why did these monkeys not live in their forest? You people, chicken mcnuggets!
Drop that subject, it just make me more furious. Let's talk about some happy stuffs. Alvin finally posted some pictures and i just grabbed them. There are still some with Celia and Alvin, i think? There ARE a lot with Celia, but not very sure if she's transferring the photos that we took on the bus to her notebook. So we shall wait again! Now i shall just post those pictures i just got.
And i remembered, my curls on that day was totally screwed up!
The rose given by F21's staff is dying. ): But i've an everlasting sunflower by Dhana, no worries! And she didn't attend school today! AGAIN! School is hothothothot today, no much wind. I hate you, Total Defence Day._________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Fun time always pass by quickly. I dated with quite a few on Valentine's day. Namely, Celia, Alvin, Szeyan and Aries! Was actually suppose to date with Dhana too, but she's unwell.
On Valentine, met up with Celia and Alvin. I WAS SUPER DUPER UBER LATE. (1.5hr) Cool huh? Hahaha. But that's worth the wait people! Cause i look so hell unresistable and sexy! LOL, KIDDING LA. I ANYHOW ONLY. Went Vivo and was supposed to catch Bride Wars, But the time slot just can't fit in. So we cancelled that plan and went Forever 21! Hahahaha, yesyesyes, we're always inside Forever 21. Bought a top and an earring. (Nice!) Oh ya! The staff gave us a rose! Like omggggg, first time in my entire life SOMEONE GAVE ME A ROSE. Happy larhxzxzxzxz, of course. After that, we went for lunch at LJS. Bumped into quite a few familiar faces too.
Headed down to town in the evening. I've got new file, new pen and new staple, from Muji! :D Hohohho, i love new stuffs. Had fun at Paperchase, posing pictures and everything. I mean, we had fun and laughter everywhere! I am such a super-spendthrift. I bought a bottle of PLAIN WATER for 2bucks. Like whathehell right! I can like get it easily from Giant or whatsoever shop below 1buck. But that time was really too thirsty and hardly able to find any around. So yeah, wasted. ):
After that, they went home and i went to find Szeyan and Aries. Slacked, chatted, joked. Many many gossips! And we went home. :D
PS: CELIA, YOUR "TULIPS" BERRY BERRY PRETTY HOR? (I'm being caustic here!)
On Sunday, was supposed to went out with Dhana and Celia for some...i forgot. But Dhana didn't received Celia's text, so Dhana didn't came along. ): Went to Celia's church and wow, quite a few still do remember me. :D
Cornerstone church had this event going on yesterday. The Planetshakers came and performed. Alright, not bad. But because i'm not a Christian, i find that there are too many worship songs. I mean, ALL ARE WORSHIP SONGS. Celia was like effing crazy! Jumping, shouting and i don't know. But i just can't jump along. It just doesn't really gives me that kind of excitement. But not bad, cause it's music! One of the member in Planetshaker is very pretty!
After that, we went to have our dinner at Mac. I guess i ate alot of fries. But it's deliciousssssssssssss. (: And Mac really changed alot! The curry sauce doesn't taste that nice anymore, Mayonaise tastes like butter and their bun is very soft!
Went home by cab and thanks Celia and Celeste! (: We were very crazy on the way to dinner. Camwhored stupid faces, many many kinds! That was really laughoutloud. We took Jordan's iTouch and played the games too. We're totally making a fool of ourselves! Especially that slapping game. HAHAHA.
So today, school was fine. PE made me sooooo tired. ): And my hair looks weird today.
Alright, that marks the end of my post. Bye! :D There are actually many photos taken, but it's inside their phones. So, i'll have to wait for it! (:_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Valentine '09, you rock! You've made lovers and friends unite and love. Everyone's so touched and realised someone is up behind them no matter what. Yes, everyone loves Valentine's Day!
Alright, so Happy Valentine's Day people. (: Enjoy this special occasion yeah. Show your love today. :D
Got the new Seventeen already. Not very interesting, but still not bad. But i still have not looked through the whole magazine yet. I found new song again! Hey Monday's debut album is not bad, while Fall Out Boy's suck. To me, yes, it suck. I don't know why. But the music just so-not-nice! However, there's only one song i find it okay and that's the song i've posted on my blog! (: Almost all songs in Hey Monday's debut album is great. So have a ear on them. (:
Yes, i'm dating with alot of people later on. And i'm going to prepare myself already, cause i swear i'll be late again!
Bye. (PS: I like Hey Monday's Obvious!)_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Okay, i've locked my blog. And only people i invited have the access to here. So the obvious reason i locked it is because it's very annoying! I mean, those bias-haters. For such a stranger hating me like hell and judging me about everything. It's like, hmm, do i know you?
Firstly, they judge my language, saying it's very 'suck'. 1) I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU. 2) I DIDN'T EVEN TALK TO YOU OR IN PHONE. 3) GO OVERSEAS FOR FURTHER STUDIES IF YOU ARE SO GOOD AT IT. 4) PLEASE MATURE YOUR THINKING. 5) YOU DON'T COMPARE EDUCATIONS. 6) BECAUSE THAT ISN'T ANY PART OF THE CONFLICT! 7) YOU GUYS HAVE ENGLISH ERROR ALMOST EVERYWHERE.
Secondly, they judge on my appearance, saying i'm ugly and 'ahlian'. 1) I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU. 2) I DIDN'T SAY I AM PRETTY. 3) DON'T JUDGE ME LIKE A BOOK. 4) IF YOU'RE PRETTIER THAN ME, THEN GO JOIN THE BEAUTY CONTEST, DON'T JUDGE ME FOR NOTHING. 5) I'VE NEVER SEE YOU BEFORE, NEITHER HAVE YOU. 6) I AM NOT AN AH-LIAN. 7) I THINK YOU'RE UGLY TOO. (:
Thirdly, they say i'm a poser. Yes, this is the main point of the whole conflict. 1) THE SONG WAS JUST COINCIDENCE. 2) PLEASE CLEAR YOUR DOUBTS BEFORE ACCUSING. 3) ADMIT IT THAT YOU MISTOOK ME. 4) DON'T ASSUME STUFF. 5) DON'T EVEN THINK YOU'RE ALWAYS THE NICE ONE WITH GOOD TRENDS. 6) I DON'T THINK MY STYLE RESEMBLES YOURS. 7) BELIEVE IT OR NOT, CAUSE YOU CAN'T SEE THIS POST. F***.
Lastly, she say she have alot of supporters. 1) APPARENTLY, YOU GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT ME. 2) THEY VISIT MY SITE AND BITCH ABOUT ME. 3) THEY ARE YOUR FRIENDS, LIKE IT'S SO EFFING OBVIOUS. 4) FRIENDS TO STRANGERS, OBVIOUSLY IT'S FRIEND. 5) IT'S FRIEND, NOT SUPPORTER. 6) DON'T SAY IT LIKE YOU'RE SO EFFING POPULAR, I DON'T LIKE IT! 7) BULLDOZER. LOLLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
Yes, pretty interesting post yeah? It's really obvious they're friends. But she claims it's her supporters. Are we having a singing competition or running in a race track during Olympic? I really don't like it when people are being too caustic and giving blunt opinions. And i don't know why people love to hold grudges. Real problematic teen life i have right now.
Look at the time they post the tag! Look, it's 8 in the morning. Like who the hell really wakes up at this time?
Yes, i locked it, and finally a peaceful blog. I don't think i'm removing all those nasty comments. Because i think my friends should know me well. I hope those nasty comments won't affect the relationship between my friends and i. I mean, IT SURE WON'T! :D
Today didn't really like school. But i enjoy it almost every moment. But today, things went wrong. Let me rant now.
I hate it, i really really hate it, i swear! WHY PEOPLE MAKE USE OF ME AND INSULT ME?! I fucking hate the group of guys in my class. You guys have no fucking gentleman's attitude.
Insluting me almost everyday, i'm already so used to it and almost everytime, i ignore it. Come on, i have my own patience and limit. You know, i always feel like kicking you guys' dick. And seriously, alot of you were suppose to be nice. But because of one guy in our class, you guys tried to act like him and get his attention. I may be the noisiest girl in the class, but at least i know what's fun.
Throwing staples at each other recently, i think it's quite fun. But hey, one thing you gotta know. You effing took my whole box of staples and used them all up. And you still effing got the cheek to throw the empty box at me and expect me to throw it for you?! Hey, i'm always playing and seems cheerful. But look, play is play, you don't treat me like a philipino maid. Now my own stapler have no staples, thanks to you guys huh. Effing be a gentleman, LEARN! I seldom gets angry. Now you guys made it, don't effing think i'm playing.
I am seriously not a grudge-ful person, but why people always try to step over the line? Why can't people just try to put themselves in other's shoes? Effing imagine i'm insulting you, from top to bottom, how the hell you feel? And my reaction was to ignore, how the hell can you effing stand it! And imagine i treat you like my maid, how eff-ed up can that be? And people just can't understand and tested my patience. It's not the staples i'm angry about, but the attitude you gave. You effing respect me man, you don't think you're cool and i'll get my heart melt. I mean, NO GIRLS WILL EVER LIKE A GUY THAT DOESN'T SHOW RESPECT.
Been really moodless after POA class due to that incident. But really thankful that some classmates actually cared. Thanks Celia, Dhana, Gabriel and Dzuhri for the concern. And maybe a little of Hussein and ...i forgot how to spell his name. But i always prefer keeping stuffs to myself. (: See, i'm such an independent girl! HAHAHAHAHAHA. :X Pretty sorry Abang, i didnt managed to coach you today. ):
Okay, that's really enough, such a long one. A little dued photos. Bye.
I like this! Cause i like this hair in this photo! :D_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
YES! I'm finally done with my blogskin! I spent 2 days shifting the codes and everything, or should it be 3 days? (It's 1am now) Worse, i accidentally clicked 'clear edit' just now. Made me so eff-ed up. ): The codes are hard to understand, but i'm just way too clever. Hahahaah! What only, right! LOL. I'm such a pig. I actually fell asleep yesterday! Got up at 5.30am by mum just to off the comp. That's disturbing. Cause i remembered i dreamt of something nice! D: I'm craving for some chickens right now. Mum's having sore throat and cough, hope she'll be fine soon. (: I love Florida's Natural Au'some Fruit Nuggets. (Strawberry flav.) Let's get random on topics. What a dumbwit! You actually still do remember me. :D No life larhxzxz, phuleese get a life. LOL. Ellox. Buhbyexz. Bosanbosanbosanbosanbosan!_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Physics and Chinese tomorrow. Alright, i'm so prepared to stone at my Chinese paper tomorrow. Memorising over again and again, how tiring it is. Having a messy school hair-do this week...or perhaps the rest of the year? Hell, im in need of an hair-cut...but i want my hair to grow thicker! Had a nice assembly in hall during school, but i still sneak-slept. (:
Oh well, minahs, ahlians, gangsters, whatever. What's with that! Okay, maybe i do look like one, but i dislike being one. Appearance, ahlian. Heart, fuck, i'm so 100% ain't one. Just because of my hair, i look like one. Pretty saddening. Good girl gone bad, bad girl gone mad.(at you) Hahahah, like a no link, i know. This sentence just flashes in my mind. Ayeaye, not referring to anybody. But like everybody's saying i'm an ahlian, okay...not everybody, but 1-3 of them? Blah, I AIN'T ONE. ):
Okay, why am i talking 'bout so many stupid stuff over the net? And i feel like fucking up _____! ShiatzShiatzShiatz laxzxzxz.
Quit! Hahahahhahhah, okay...stupid. KILL YOU, MURDER I WROTE! I watched NC16 show, purposely. Not movie and it ain't any nudy stuff. (: And omg, Reign is so effing rich in PS la. My old problem is back again.. SKIN! This thing has been bugging me since years. Pray it'll recover soon. Getting so bored of my blogskin, but am so lazy to change it. Fengmo is here to haunt me tonight again! The medicine is making me so BITTER. Chemistry tomorrow, all the best! :D_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Monday's outing is cancelled. ): Kinda disappointed, but.. Get well real soon, Celia! :D
I'm having my last minute study of SS now. I hope Vincent will reach school earlier and return my notebook for revise! ): Am getting up damn early and go to school for some serious memoris-ations! What an English, hahah.
Yes, clique with bread for Recess! :D Okay, i'm gong back for studying now. Goodnight, xo. (:
Tears is fallin' 'cause I miss him everyday Friends is callin' askin, "Homie, you okay?" He told me his love was mine And then he gave what's mines away And it was like click clack bang bang I got shot Never should've got caught slippin' with this girl When the pretty girls shoot They gon' aim for your heart So sweet and innocent I never saw it coming A permanent hole inside my heart I wish I could've seen this from the start Learned my lesson the harder way Never gon' be the same again _________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Don't treat me to the things of the world I'm not that kind of girl Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve Is a man that makes me, then takes me And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond Pull me into your arms Say I'm the one you want If you don't, you'll be alone And like a ghost, I'll be gone
It's 4.06am and i'm still not yet asleep. Goodnight._________________________________________________________________________________________________________
