From 970+ friends, it became 21 friends when i login. -.- I was aiming to get 1000 friends (for fun) but had a sudden maintenance. After that, i login and found my friends all gone. Pissed me off, seriously. Now i hate friendster. I mean, i will only go in there when i'm bored or anything.
I'm missing baby sooooooo much now. Babybaby, i wanna see you now, even if that's for a second.
Can't believe that we're not as close as before. How sweet we used to be, used to say, used to do, all vanishes. I wonder if your feelings have faded or not. Why it seems like you did, long ago. I thought i caught your whole heart with me, maybe someone really stole it. Many girls look better than me, personalities are better than me, have you fall for them? (I'm not saying anyone in particular) Just why it seems like it's coming to an end soon. I don't want that to happen. I want you so much in my life. I never knew i needed someone so much before. I thought i could just live without guys, i realised i can't. I thought i don't have to destroy my own happiness by not marrying in the future. You've changed the mindsets in me. Now i need you, i want to stand beside you in the wedding photo. You are so great. Although sometimes i'm angry at you, i'm not happy either. And of course, when you're angry at me, i'll sulk all day. I feel so sad that i don't even understand you now. Maybe because we hardly talk. I remembered that i once told you not to care too much. I'm sorry, i've regretted much now. We planned to meet once in a week. Now we're like meeting each other thrice in a month or less. We're even worse than being friends. I know many times you didnt trust me at all. When i'm sad because of that, you said you do believe in me. Was that all for sympathy? I don't need them. I want you to really trust me not for any reason. I don't wanna think negatively either, but i just can't. The feeling inside me is gradually growing every moment. Just tell me how long more will we last. 'Did your feeling fade, serious? Did your feeling fade, serious? Did your feeling fade, serious? Did your feeling fade, serious? Did your feeling fade, serious?' I really want to know the real answer. Be it a good or a bad news from you. At least i know what you've been feeling towards me all the while. I'm not trying to find something to quarrel with you. I'm just typing what i'm really feeling inside of me now. And don't ask me what i want from you. I don't want anything. I just want to get back like how we used to be, that's all.
I'm not trying to post an emo post over here. This is what i'm feeling. Others, read all you want, think all you want but don't ask me what happen. I feel like stuffing up your mouth full of shit. It's like not even your problem and you keep asking me about it? -.- Kindly mind your own business ,you biatch!_________________________________________________________________________________________________________
