Out with Amy for make-up valentine. Celia tagged along and shopped. Happy that i didn't buy anything! Cause i'm really saving money for some important stuff. Except that i helped to buy friend's stuff. So everything is in owing status. :D I still haven't pay my Library loans. Shiats, i'm scared i'll spend that money away. I'm such a big spendthrift. Hate it! I think i'm really having a diet. I had only 2 meals today, or should i say everytime i go out? One meal before leaving house and another outside. Ahhhh, i shouldn't continue this habit anymore! I need food to stuff my stupid stomach! Kinda hungry now. Maybe cook something for myself later on. :D Yumyum, fooddddd.
Met up with Vincent and co. later. Laugh, chat, slack, advises. Okay, that's all. :D
During the night, bad news came. It was a shocked, i knew it was her. I couldn't figure out the reason why but she's avoiding me. For why should she, and what's with me? It isn't nice to know such news but i should've known it long before. What have i done or said? What's that particular reason made her have that mindset? All the past loves are such a lie to me now. She is so not worth in my heart anymore, not at all. She doesn't seem to appreciate what i do and the reason why i do. She's not living in me anymore. It hurts to know how well we were and it turned out to be like that. And it hurts to see those tiny pictures. It definitely hurts to find that you're not here anymore. But i'm certain that you never'll be here again. Because it's all over, your second chance is gone. Don't be too secretive, because i have ways to know. Last, i'm not hating her.
I seriously don't know about the plans for tomorrow. I feel like going, but there's just someone who doesn't wish to see me. But i don't feel like giving that 'someone' a bad day. I have to meet for make-up valentine with husband and family. But i have no much plans. Should i go? Some wish me to go, some don't. It's hard to decide. But that's so selfish. It's irritating! ):
You're not worth my care anymore. I've known you long, that's what i get. Thanks man.
